I wonder how many agrees but in recent surveys done, over 60% of guys look for a potential wife in a girlfriend. And I can't help but to agree. At least for me, it is that way. And just when I thought I may have found one, everything had to go into the drain. Long distance relationship don't work for any of us? I don't know. I tried to keep it but I guess it was that way for her.
And now, after more than 3 months, only have I found out that I was a stupid fool. Why am I still so emotional about it? Why am I still hoping one day we could get together again? Why did I keep trying to plan a trip back to KL just to see her again? Why did everything had to come down to the truth that only can be found out in FB?
I tried to let go. I tried not to interfere with your life. I guess it is what you want me to do. Maybe you don't even read what I write anymore. I have no idea how you moved on but I just couldn't. Everything we been through always comes back to me. I even still dream of you yet it's all a dream.
Guess I'm just another idiot. Honestly, I never wanted it to end but because I loved you so much that I couldn't bare to see you suffer. I had to agree with what you wanted. I thought you were suppose to try living without me. And yes, maybe you have succeeded in doing so. And the fool in me isn't doing quite well.
I held on the every single hope to have you come back. I held every single hope to go back to KL and give you a hug. But I guess, it's no use anymore. Someone else has taken that place in such a short time. I guess I'm pretty worthless now. I can't even bare to see the things you give me get dirty or even touch the ground.
How long am I still going to have to be in this state? You've said nothing to me. I tried talking to you. I didn't want to check but I still did. Guess I'm a stupid idiot who had no idea he's been single for more than 3 months already.
Why do I keep crying whenever I think of you? Even as of now, typing this, I can't hold back my tears. I've tried so hard but now it's no longer a point. You should have just told me. And I guess what the heck? I'm no longer your priority.
What can I do? I'm just a fool 400KM away from you. Holding on to hopes that are bound to be dashed.
I loved you. I still do. No idea if it will ever go away any soon. Seems like you've moved on, I'm glad for you. As being glad, is all I can do.